Hmm I don’t know where to start for this one… A part of me wants to start from 2019 (today) another part of me wants to start from 2017 ( when I realized that love at first sight is actually a thing).
In February 2017 I started University. Before I go any further, can I just say University is nothing like in the movies, it’s not all fun and games; I mean it’s fun when you know people, but above all it’s challenging and very easy to get lost in the chaos. Anyway I had just started my Food Science and Technology programme which involved a lot of chemistry. I had no friends in my class, for a few reasons;
1. I was a “snob”
2. I did not talk much. People seem to like people who talk a lot.
3. I wasn’t big on being around people, when I could easily have conversations in my head when I was alone.
I had a bunch of modules that I did with people doing different degree programmes. So when I had lectures for organic chemistry, the lecture theatre would be packed with people doing Biochemistry and a bunch of other programmes. To be honest I only remembered Biochemistry because that’s what he (MCE) was studying.
When it all began…So this one day, I was early for the chemistry lecture and decided to sit close to the front, so I sat in the fourth row from the front; and guess who came in late, looking handsome as always and sat right in from of me!! He did. I cannot remember a single thing Dr Nhamo talked about in that lecture, but I do remember how the hair on the back of his head was coiled. I couldn’t take notes that day, and every other day he sat close by. I remember the first time I heard him speak, he sounded like an angel (not because I know what angels sound like, it was just beautiful), don’t get me started on the way his eyes smile when he smiles. I wanted to know more about him, but I had no idea how I was going to make that happen. I told my friends about him, and they suggested that I greet him and make things move forward, but I had a boyfriend and I didn’t really want things to move “forward”. I just liked the idea of him.
Weeks and maybe months went by without seeing him, and I hoped that giddy feeling would fade. That was a lie. I liked it. I had started attending Rotaract meetings regularly, and this one Friday I got the shock of my life when I saw him in the corner of the room. I think I had a mini heart attack. I couldn’t not look at him, but at the same time I didn’t want him to catch me looking. So I kept my cool and waited for everyone to introduce themselves. That was the day, finally this boy I had fallen in “love” with had a name. My heart was happy. Now I could do a love test on your behalf…I’m just kidding. I was overjoyed though. The semester ended and I hadn’t gained the courage to talk to you.
Then came the second semester of the year, I was the club services director for Rotaract. This was the one way I could talk to him without making my interest in him obvious, nothing exciting happened during this semester, except how my heart used to beat for him; in the most literal sense oh! and how he once passed an imaginary blunt to my friend and I. That was hilarious.
In 2018 I came back with a bang, I was so ready to pour out my heart to him ( mind you I knew nothing about him, except that he was tall, handsome, chocolate..like milk chocolate, funny, and handsome gosh! And that I thought his skin was soft)
In February 2018 he officially said hi to me, and we weren’t even in a Rotaract meeting! From that day onwards he would greet me every time he saw me; most of the time I was with my friends though, so maybe he was greeting them and not me; because he greeted them even when I wasn’t with them.
In March 2018 there was the Mahadan 3.0 Blood drive. I was disappointment because the nurse couldn’t see or feel any of the veins in my arms, so I didn’t actually donate any blood, but I stayed all the same and I got a sticker!
A few of us went outside to play soccer with a tennis ball, weird yes, but totally worth it. He spoke to me! Like not to me and the people I was with, but just to me. I wanted to smile from ear to ear, but I didn’t, instead I wanted to avoid having him kick the ball to me, so I was low-key trying to run away when he asked me why I wasn’t kicking the ball hard enough. All sorts of things starting running through my mind at this point, my mind was a jungle, but I played soccer and enjoyed it.
Every Rotaract meeting after this made me nervous, plus the way he says my name makes me happy, like he doesn’t pronounce all the letters in Tafara, instead he says it as Tafara ( if you didn’t read the Tafara’s differently, you don’t belong on earth!). Every time I saw him walking past my department, my heart would beat really fast and I would smile uncontrollably, whilst Tracy and Tanaka looked on, until Tracy decided that we should call him Man Crush Everyday. Which was so fitting. It was like every time I saw him felt like the first time I saw him in the organic chemistry lecture.
In the second semester of 2018 my friends and I started this thing where every Friday we would dare each other to do something we wouldn’t normally be comfortable doing. Can I just say every time it was my turn I was scared I would be dared to tell him how I have had a crush on him since 2017. Thank God that never happened! But Tracy convinced me it was time, mum even chipped in and said “when you like a guy you have to make him know how you feel” that is easier said than done, she didn’t understand that. I nearly gave in.
I was extremely happy on this particular day, and so I texted him. Yes! I texted MCE. I mean we had texted each other before, but only about Rotaract related issues. This day was different. So I told him I had a few questions I wanted to ask him, and not about Rotaract. Then I told him I would ask him when I randomly bumped into him. Unfortunately, I never bumped into him and he seemed to avoid the questions all together. Tracy came up with the theory that I had scared him away. Honestly! Does that even happen over text? He continued to greet me in the goofiest (this may not be a word) of ways. A month went by and I had forgotten about him, not completely obviously, but enough for me not to smile when his name was mentioned.
In December there was a hail storm and I kept asking my friends if I should close the door, and they weren’t answering me, then he just walked past us and said “You should probably close the door” then he did this cool thing with his fingers. I melted. And I felt the entire zoo in my stomach. MCE was back! I never did tell him how I felt/ feel.
Today he called me. I didn’t answer my phone. I watched my phone ring. I had a mini heart attack. Then I opened WhatsApp only to see messages from him asking me about the senior lab technician from my department. I mean honestly! Are we friends? Because if we are I totally have a crush on my friend! I kinda like that he texted me though. Can I still tell him I’ve had a crush on him for almost two years now? Or would that “scare” him? He’s funny over text too! Oh and I’m totally smiling. Did I tell you our babies would be so cute! Gosh I sound like a teenager. smh.