First of all can I just say the internet is a lie! I didn’t cry, at all. I expected to cry a river.
I have wanted to get a tattoo for the longest time now, probably before I thought about getting my nose pierced and I was 15 years old when that happened.
Strangely getting my nose pierced wasn’t as painful as I had imagined. I thought I’d cry (I really need to stop relying on the internet) I didn’t cry, probably because I was 20 years old.
There’s a lot of social stigma surrounding nose piercings, let alone tattoos; I suppose it’s an abomination! (I just did my ugly laugh).
This man once asked me if having my nose pierced was supposed to have a sexual purpose. It’s sad to say in this world everything we do has to be “sexual”. I just wanted to look cuter, to live a little, to get out of my comfort zone. There’s absolutely nothing sexual about that.
Yesterday when I woke up I decided that tomorrow (today) would be the day. The day I get the tattoo I hadn’t stopped talking about. If you say you know me, and you didn’t know that I wanted a tattoo; shame on you. Don’t ever say you know me again!
So I contacted Shané Miller ( the tattoo artist) who I’ve been low-key stalking to be honest. I just had to be sure, she’d be the one! (She’s totally a big deal!!!) Anyway, I made my appointment, and excited wouldn’t be the best word to describe how I’m feeling at this very moment., I suppose ecstatic would do justice to the feeling I have.
Although I must admit I’m slightly anxious because I’m going alone. That’s not a bad thing right. I mean who better to share this magical moment with than myself? And anyway I always refer to myself as “The Independent Woman”. So I’m simply being independent.
I’ve done all kinds of research about what the experience will be like, I even watched videos. Smh. Honestly, the pros outweigh the cons.
I know some people (no fingers pointed) have this belief that when a woman has a tattoo or tattoos it means she’s giving herself away to men,so they can harass her. I completely disagree with this. How on earth do these concepts even correlate? I’ve come to the conclusion that these assumptions are made by the men who actually target women, or by the men who feel intimidated by a woman who expresses herself freely, maybe it’s the women too, the ones who are too scared to deviate from the norms, and probably secretly wish they had the courage to do it themselves. Don’t get me started on the women and men who say it’s evil. I understand that my body is the Lord’s temple. But why do I call it “my” body? That’s a terrible justification I know, but why does another human get to decide what’s “evil”? Clearly you think you’re a god of some sort.
I don’t particularly care what people will think and say about me after I get this tattoo done. Life is all about making choices. I’ve made this choice. To hell with society!
You’re probably wondering what tattoo I’m getting. A dove silhouette with 4 birds flying. The number of birds doesn’t really mean anything to me. On a side note, I forgot the black T-shirt I wanted to change into, so now I’m that girl who’s going to get a tattoo whilst wearing a white blouse. Smh.
I chose doves because they represent the purity I once had, and they are flying to represent all the things I’ve lost and had to let go of along the way ; innocence is one of them. So in essence, this tattoo is a representation of Purity and lost innocence.
This is me post tattoo. It’s beautiful. I absolutely love it!
For starters I arrived one hour earlier. ( I do things like this when I’m anxious. Sometimes I say yes or no to everything)
Can I just say I had no idea I’d have to fill in a consent form. In the movies people walk into tattoo parlour’s and they walk right out. Why don’t they show the consent forms?…
Anyway, I filled in the form whilst my heart was interchangeably travelling to my throat and to my anus. It didn’t help that Shané wasn’t talking much, nervousness makes me want to talk, a lot! So instead I had a conversation in my head about the fish tank and the canvases on the wall; whilst I was in my head, she was drawing the birds on a stencil ( I can’t remember what it’s called). I’ll skip the nitty gritties.
I lay down on the chair with my right arm over my head and I kept hoping the sweat glands in my armpit wouldn’t let me down or even worse my anus. It actually wasn’t that deep, mainly the anus part.
Just before the needle touched my skin, I asked what it would feel like and I was told ” like you’re being scratched” a very reasonable response, so I settled for that. It didn’t feel like that for me though.
At first it was uncomfortable, and my inability to control my breathing made it worse. Luckily that didn’t last long, the vibrations of the needle against my skin were kinda soothing; a few minutes later she was done with the first bird.
The second one brought about a feeling I knew all too well. I couldn’t feel my legs. If you’ve ever been baked then you know this feeling. My legs were floating, but I was lying down. So technically I was flying. I like flying! At one point I thought I was going to faint, I could feel myself drifting, but Shané started talking. Thank God for that! Otherwise I would have an incomplete tattoo, plus that would mean I’m a wuss. I’m not a wuss.
The third bird was painful. I kept my cool, but it hurt like a bitch; okay maybe not like an entire bitch, but like a half bitch. The bottom line is, it hurt!
The fourth one, well I can’t say much about it because I didn’t feel anything at all. After the fourth bird (the one closest to my chest). I didn’t feel any physical changes to be honest, but mentally there we’re fireworks! I had officially lost my tattoo virginity! It felt great!
Now can I just say tattoo artists aren’t given the credit they deserve. It’s real talent. I mean it’s one thing to be able to draw on paper with a pencil and an eraser close by, but tattoos are permanent, they can easily go wrong. So yeah that was my first tattoo experience, definitely not the last one!
Lastly a big thank you to Shané Miller, a girl is talented!! Do check out her Instagram account @nay_miller_92 . Amazing work!